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went shopping yesterday at orchard road with mum and dad
bought school shoes,cargo pants..
dad went crazy and brought us to the bugis street junction there
where i saw many many ah lians and ah bengs
the only thing i wanna do was to get out of that place and never going back there again

dad drove us to queensway
where he said there was many things to buy
yah right
the shopping centre sells 99% boy's stuff and you expect me to buy that?
he only wants to go there because of himself
its was 7.15 when dad finally finished HIS shopping
and caused me and my mum to wait. and do nothing.
shitty

AND
i realised yesterday that it was the first time i was going
away without my parents,grandparents,family
ALONE
excluding the fact that i am going with the school.
AND I never wanted to
damn.
i think i will cry at night cause i will be missing my family
awww..

for the trip
the stupid stinking freaking old woman,
the teacher in charge..
she cheated my of my feelings, or rather my trust
i totally hate her now

i told her long long long time before the trip or when anything was decided
that i DIDNT WANT TO GO.

and she said :
nonono!! cannot! already tell the travel agency.... den blah blah blah..
place already booked! ...blah blah.. etc
(i shant add the details)
N:but i really cannot go... i have competition(i had to bluff her)
T:nononono...etc
N:huh.. really cnnt say dun wan to go ahs
T:yah lah! cannot.. and you need to pay the deposit.QUICK.
N:(frustrated by the teacher's nagging) OKOKOKOK i tmr give you
and i just walked away.. not bothering about her

and i told my mum about this.
and my mum said that the stupid teacher may be just bluffing me about the
fact that the place is booked as i nvr even pay the DEPOSIT so how can she book???
and that she may be BULLYING me.. as in trying to force me to pay the $$
as sometimes teachers can get $ from the travel agency ..she can earn PROFIT..
and maybe the agency nid to have an amount of ppl den teacher can go FREE...
ETC ETC ETC

so its just for the interest of the TEACHER HERSELF.
damn
and i was too naive..
i think i just believe in ppl too easily
and that i dun have the mind to think further
oh my goshness
why am i sooo STUPID???
arghs
i hate that teacher
to think that she was so.. kind looking??
for the fact that SHES OLD&FAT
and when she smiles she looks like the cai shen

ARGHS.